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Thursday, May 05, 2005

sorri fot the MIA... change my bloggie le... hehe... didn't noe ppl still frequent my blog... haha... aniwae my new blog is www.my-angelic-baby.blogspot.com, dun ask mi how i come up wif the name... haha... tat's all for now...

bye

Joyce loving wyn @ 11:20:00 PM

Saturday, April 09, 2005

heylo... time passes real fast todae... cos i get to go out wif my babe... haha... so long since i had went out wif arafah... went BK to meet her,chatted for awhile den left for TP... we sure do haf alot to catch up since we had not since each other for so long(^_^) reach the student service thing at TP and the 2 of us like blur blur de... den came 2 gers, quite frenli den she asked us bout payment and stuff... it realli got us panicked... cos we forgot somethin... haha... in the end was mi hu forgot... so sad ar... hehe...

den went to Tampines to shop, shop so long den i tried 2 tops... one of it was realli nice.... realli wanted to get... but sigh*... hehe... we will go shoppin again once i get my stupid pay... someone from BUM called, tot dey finally so nice to actualli call mi bout the damn pay... found out tat mum actualli called dem and scolded dem... haha.... dey deserve it... but tat guy hu called was nice la, more polite i guess...he asked mi to go back to work... NO WAY... over my dead body... pay mi a thousand i oso dun wan...

went back bedok and went to shorten my watch... FINALLY... hehe... waited quite long... so look ard at those watches lo... realli nice lae... hehe... esp the cynda? can't rem the brand... but veri ex... lucki i tried on the watch before going home... cos it ended up too small... so pai sae haf to ask tat guy to put longer... hehe... den now the watch is jus nice... but feel wierd... cos it's not loose... hehe... im too choosy... (^_^)

went home den slack... 6+ went to grandma's place for dinner... and my stupid bike's tyre jus haf to be puntured... shucks... but i still manage to ride... haha... stayed till 10+ den went home...

this few daes hasn't been slpin earli... silly mi i guess??? alwaes hopin he will msg mi or call mi... wait until i fall asleep... happy tat a num of times he replied... too happy i can't slp oso... hehe... guess i will alwaes wait ba... and i jus wan u to noe im missin u everi single moment...

Joyce loving wyn @ 12:08:00 AM

Monday, April 04, 2005

hey im back again... yest had quite a good slp... guess i was realli tired... woke up at 10, ate med and went back to slp till 2... hehe... one big pig... wanna repay all the sleepless nite i had, to make my eyebag go away... it's gettin darker each dae...

life without him isn't the same... it's real hard for mi to cope this type of feelings... being ignored... being avoided... all the things he said to mi was it all a lie??? alll thoes messages we used to share and all the memories...where issit??? i dun blive tat it will go to a end like tat... i still wanna work things out... but it wun help if it's onli one sided...

i feel like a fool, still waitin for his calls or msgs like i used to... even when i noe it wun happen... wonder wad am i realli thinkin... alwaes wanted to msg him, finish typing everithin and i jus haf to delete it... feels so...

even dreamt bout him last nite, went shoppin, had fun and lots... i miss it... how i hope im alwaes in the dream... i dun wanna wake up to face this world of sadness and loneliness...

i feel so loneli, feels like a nobody.... or even like a dead person or can i say worse than someone who had passes away... at least there is still ppl missin and lovin them even dey had left this world... for mi, i guess im worse den them...

never tot tat things cud end up this way... how i wished im both deaf and blind, this way i wun get to hear all the lies, see all the wadeva evil things...

bro is the onli one hu noes exactli how i feels, thanks.... even tho u can't do anithin bout this... mummy had been askin mi bout him, i dun wanna tell her..... i onli share wif her all my happiness not my sadness...

i realli hope i cud be in a coma or smth, so i wun ever wake up to this loneliness... im feelin so terrible...

~i rem u once said u wun make mi cry~

Joyce loving wyn @ 9:35:00 PM

I'd Do anything By Simple Plan

Another day is going by, I'm thinkin' about you all the time.
But you're not there and i'm here waitin'.
And I wrote this letter in my head,
cuz so many things were left unsaid.
But now you're gone and I can't think straight.

This could be the one last chance to make you understand, Yeah

Chorus:
I'd do anything,
just to hold you in my arms,
to try to make you laugh,
somehow I can't put you in the past.
I'd do anything,
just to fall asleep with you,
would you remember me,
cuz I know I won't forget you.

Verse 2:
Together we broke all the rules,
dreamin' of droppin' outta school,
And leave this place to never come back.
So now, maybe after all these years,
if you miss me have no fear,
I'll be here, I'll be waitin'.

This could be the one last chance to make you understand,
And I just can't let you beat me once again, Yeah.

Chorus:
I'd do anything just to hold you in my arms,
to try to make you laugh,
somehow I can't put you in the past.
I'd do anything just to fall asleep with you
would you remember me,
cuz I know I won't forget you.

I close my eyes, and all I see is you.
I close my eyes, I try to sleep I can't forget you.
(na na na na na na)
And i'd do anything for you.
(na na na na na na naaaaaa)

Chorus:
I'd do anything just to hold you in my arms,
to try to make you laugh,
somehow I can't put you in the past.
I'd do anything just to fall asleep with you,
to fall asleep with you, with you,
Yeah. I'd do anything to fall asleep with you.
I'd do anything there's nothing I won't do.
I'd do anything to fall asleep with you.
I'd do anything, cuz I know I won't forget you.

Joyce loving wyn @ 3:41:00 PM

Sunday, April 03, 2005

hey im back again... guess i wun be slpin earli...

met him todae... real glad tho it was awhile onli...

cried the whole evening till i fallen asleep... bro tot i was sick and he was quite concerned... he seems to noe wad happen... thanks bro...

thanks darrell kor kor and T, for being there for mi??? hehe... thanks for ur concern tho... (^_^)

few daes later if u will see mi without eye... haha... i mean my eyes will so swollen u can see my eyes... haha... k stop being lame... im jus tryin to cheer myself ma...

stomach growlin but im not eatin... dun even haf the appetite to eat anithin... hope tomolo wun be like tat...

aniwae i can't get to see my blog cos of some prob and to those ppl hu tag sorri i can't reply...

guess im going to wander off to some tears-land soon...

*miss ya loads....alwaes will...

Joyce loving wyn @ 11:00:00 PM

heylo.... im so soso dead tired... woke up earli in the morning at 5++, but i onli manage to slp ard 3+... cousin came over to stay, was rather happy cos there is someone to tok to...but too bad she was quite tired.... cried myself to slp... it was horrible... cudn't haf a gd slp at all....

morning went to pay "visit" to grandfather... qingming festival ma... get to get ard wif cuzzie, not bad la... but nv tok to much oso... den aunt kept callin mi, newspaper auntie.... she say i look like one aunt... haha... no mood to dress up, dress so nice hu see... after tat we went to some place to eat lo... was rather boring... cos i was tired and im practicalli in no mood... stayed till 9+ den we went home... reach home i jus slammed on my bed... haha... but cuzzie keep disturbin mi... sian... now kena woken up le, cannot slp liao... somemore i haf to find somethin to do or else i will start cryin again... sigh*...

i miss him badli.... but wad can i do? sms him,email him... no reply... im helpless...

Joyce loving wyn @ 12:42:00 PM

Saturday, April 02, 2005

so long since i blogged... it's practically rottin here... this few weeks or daes didn't felt realli good... sick... i guess... but hu noes... no one... im the onli one sufferin alone... ALONE!!! not even my family members noe... im tryin so hard to hide... and guess one dae i will realli be admitted to hospital... mus be wonderin wad happen to mi rite? i oso duno... i alwaes get those giddy spells, and it's horrible... it blurs my vision for one min? tat's why alwaes ended up knockin on to somethin... wanted to tell piggy bout it, but didn't want him to worry.... he seems busy, dun wanna add ani burden to him... and he seems not in a good mood... it's okie i understand, guess he was tired in camp...

guess i lost appetite in alot of things oso le... doesn't realli eat... feels as tho i haf anorexia... see alot of food jus turns mi off... sometimes oso haf to force myself to eat... it sucks...

felt so out of place... like no one cares bout mi... and i still haf to put on a strong front... im sick and tired of this...

i miss my baby alot... i realli want to see him... cried almost everidae cos i miss hiim too badli... tot i cud see him todae and now smth is wrong... it sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im not a gd gf i guess, a big useless one.... now my eyes feel so swollen, tired of cryin... no mood to do anitin, might as well ask mi to die... die... one week back, i nearli wanted to jump off the building... but y ... for? and hu is the one gettin hurt? ur loved ones... thank goodness i was thinkin rite...

i feel so lifeless now, so empty... can someone jus asked mi out for a walk in the park or aniwhere... i miss the times when my girls was there, when im down...

sometimes i think even if im dead no one will noes... maybe...

Joyce loving wyn @ 1:50:00 PM

Monday, March 21, 2005

hi... so long since i've blog... guess my site is alreadi rottin away le... nothin realli to blog... cos i have been slackin my life away... haha...

sometimes it's hurts to see tat ppl u r closed to are gettin more distant... u treat them like ur own family but they doesn't... i duno wad the hell im tokin bout... guess im feelin empty wifout my frens... can't wait to make new frens somehow, cos im being neglected my the old... but there's 2 ppl, who im realli glad to haf, sha and arafah... thanks for all this years... hehe... 4 or 5 solid years... jus love u guys so much... guess no one can replace the 2 of u... haha... can't wait to get ard wif u 2... miss u guys so much...

im so loneli so loneli i cud cry.... haha... im being crazy here le la... guess my moodswings had jus came...

miss my baby to bitx... can't wait to see him tho i had seen him yest onli...haha... can never get enuff of him... k la, guess i gotta go le la... byebye

Joyce loving wyn @ 10:04:00 PM

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

i feel as tho im rottin at home... rottin niceli... hehe...guess i gotta go out excercisin? but im too plain lazy... hehe...

so let's update abit... Fridae went back to OG to return my punchcard and nametag... those cashiers keep askin mi y i quit and stuff... hehe... bored i guess... went there and colleague happen to went for lunch... so tok to auntie tan and other colleague... miss them so much... walked ard at OG and later went back to my own counter to shop... haha... and i saw another top, which i wanted to buy... but there's no 20% le... den colleague offered to buy for mi as promoter haf... so goodd... hehe... den met Rosli, one of the guards im closer to... den we were chattin and stuff... so funny... den he keep sayin "wow, u wear until so sexy, cannot tahan la" haha... miss the guards oso... hehe... esp Rosli... hehe... (^_^) like our father, alwaes tokin to auntie tan and mi... den went to piggy's place ard 6,slack at his hse den went for dinner nearby... den went back to his hse and shortli den he sent mi home... hehe... miss him lots le...

Sun went Suntec wif darlin, walked ard den went to Bum to find Ivy... de shop look so not attractive seriousli... no wonder alwaes complain bout the sales, who will see the shop like tat... hehe... think ivy didn't recognise mi... so sad... hehe... but she said she can rem darling... den say he looks veri pai sae, where got??? maybe? hehe... den after shoppin, we went to raffles... walk walk went makan den we walked to Funan... took some fotos... veri cute? hehe... den there was this shop near Funan and it realli caught my attention, the shop name was in Hot pink, "S.E.X In The City". was rather curious so pulled darling to see wad was it... and expected it was some sex shop lo... hehe... den went back to Funan find out the price of the memory card, cos his mummy wanna get... den he offered to pay for her ... so sweet rite???hehe... got some drinks before we got back and finalli can buy alcohol le... so long since i last drank... tho it was like in the new year? hehe... finalli went back to his place slack and get some stuff... And ~Shoo~.. .off i went... so fun going out wif piggy... (^_^)

time passes real fast when im wif darling... can't time jus go alil slower? hehe... im greedy... (^_^) and recentli im tryin sosososo hard not to write or speak Singlish... the moment i said la, lo or wadeva, darling will oso tok in tat... k, i will try.... but still im used to it, so cannot blame mi... hehe...

aniwae darling, i miss u lots... can't wait to see u again... im all bout u...
*muAcks, love ya baby....

todae woke up earli for dental appointment... had to drag myself there... and the MRT jus haf to be sooo crammed... can feel ppl's butt... hehe... and there was this uncle, some lao ti go... kept lookin at u noe where... i was like so pissed... wanted to ask was de fuck u lookin at... but too mani ppl there... dun wanna be the center of attraction...

reach NDC ans there was like alot of ppl... den met Nicole, my pri schmate... didn't saw her, she was the one who called for mi... chatted till i was called for my turn... she had jus started her braces i tink... jus had the molar rings fitted... and she was complainin how uncomfy it is... hehe... den todae's app damn slow... was fallin asleep... and i had another molar ring fitted... yucks... i alreadi got 7 inside le... sianz... i tink one more year i shud be able to take out my braces le... can't wait... hehe...

k la, guess my post todae is long enuff le... byebye... one more thing, can someone jus tag at my board... it's rottin away le...

Joyce loving wyn @ 4:03:00 PM

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

heylo... forgot to blog yest... aniwae my bdae nite was great... darlin came over my place wif swensen's ice cream cake... yummy yummy... hehe... tho he was alil late... he sacrifice so much for mi... never eat dinner... and rush everiwhere jus to get mi the cake... so sweet of him... all the fotos taken had been developed le... but scanner got prob so unable to upload...

im missin him so much... he's havin some trainin excersice... den hardli can tok on fone... so sad... miss him to bitx la... but never mind... i will get to see him on fri... i think...hehe...

and guess wad... there's this guard hu's workin at OG is callin mi almost everidae... and it's drivin mi nuts... feels like it's harrasement... harassin my privacy... jus can't stand him... i mean it was okie to called to chat once in awhile... but he's like callin mi once a dae... feels creepy lo... but i still avoid his call... i jus can't stand him le la... i mean u r not someone im close to and u dun haf the rights to noe my wherebouts and stuff... regret gavin him my num... and when i dun sms him he will like u forget mi alreadi ar... y u nv tok to mi... y u nv acc mi... YUCKS!!!!! feel like pukin whenever he toks to mi on fone... it's like he's lame... and i duno whether to lauff or wad lo...

eeeek!!!... dun tok bout him le la... felt so disgusted....

brother said im lucki to find such a good bf... someone hu dotes on mi so much, and goes to the extend jus to make mi happy... he's true... im lucki... the luckiest ger on Earth... haha... brother even said he wished he was a ger... haha... so cute... but im damn lucki to haf piggy as my guy... (^_^)

Joyce loving wyn @ 9:14:00 PM

Monday, February 28, 2005

BOO!!! happy birthday... to mi...wayne,bing xiong, shane and all the ppl hu's birthdae happens to be today

guess this year was boring??? took result todae... was alil scared but everithin was alrite... was so happy tat i actualli pass my eng... haha... darling was the 1st one i called... i was so happy till i cried... i was hopin tat he was in front of mi... i will sureli jump on him... haha... real happy la... cried till my contact lens duno go where, but eventualli it went back to place la...

after result we walked to LJ, mi, sha and arafah... it's like ages since i see them... so happy to see them.... on the way we got some stuff... den ate at LJ... after tat went walk walk den go home le...

went to grandma's place den she gave mi red packets and ferror rocher... the first present i receive... pathetic... den daddy fetch mi out to makan... went to iciban as usual... eat until im bloated... haha....

but one thing sad bout todae is tat no present lae... actualli quite expected le... i mean hu cares... my darlin care can le la... can't wait to see him later... k la... guess i gotta go le... ciaoz...

Joyce loving wyn @ 9:23:00 PM

Friday, February 25, 2005

BOO!!! so damn long since i written... comp spoil and i was lazy to blog... hehe... so fast comin mon we will be takin result and it JUST HAF TO LEND ON MY BDAE... so scared la... my whole bdae is going to be ruin... aniwae not celebratin...so who cares...

so happy tat nx thurs will be the last dae of my work... can't stand the stupid company... stingy,miser company.... but i love the ppl in OG except for alice... hahah.... everione so frenli... and dey are alwaes the one hu i spend my time wif ma... and so long den got close to the guards den now leavin... sigh***....

i oso duno wad else to add... wish all lucks to ppl hu is takin their result... bye... and pls tag...

Joyce loving wyn @ 4:22:00 PM

Saturday, February 12, 2005

im back... now at cuzzie's place... stayin over there... left piggy's place ard 10++...

went the fair, it was... nice??? haha... ex lo...admission 2, den one token 2.50...we spent over 40... played the skyfire?... somethin better den viking? it was far more scary... feel as tho i was going to faint inside the thing... den darling's token drop out... can see from his face he was pissed... but think we lost onli 1-2 tokens... still okie la...went ard play games, but no luck never win anithin (^_^) den went shoppin at causeway point... got a card for dad to give mama...den went back to amk to makan wif his fren, gabriel.he's frenli (^_^) after tat went to his place, watch soccer? not mi, his fren... stayed till 10+ den went to cuzzie's place,met other 3 of his frens, dominic,clare and bernice??? can't rem the name... hehe...

k think tat's al for now... missin my darling to bitx... love ya baby

Joyce loving wyn @ 11:27:00 PM

yoohooo... it's the 4th dae of chinese new year le... this year i dun seems to be so excited... onli excited tat i got to dress myself up... hehe... 1st dae went ard and few relatives cudn't recognise mi... ohh yeah... tat's my purpose... change myself... haha... was quite a draggy day... as usual i wun enjoy myself... forever the quiet wan... quite happy tat i got some praises... haha... ate alot of chocolates.. haha... gettin fat fat le... there was this auntie who say i look pretty den she even wanted to intro her own son to mi... haha....

second dae went to grandma's place, wore this halter neck... it was nice... haha... had alot of fun... evening time we played poker, whoever lost will get drawn on the face... this stupid idea came out by cousin when he saw my cosmetics... we used eyeliner... and after the whole game u can see how black everione's face was... it was realli funni, we took pic, will upload once i developed it... den late evenin darlin came... so glad to see him... hehe... den he went grandma's place bai nian... got more hong baos wor... haha...most funny part was tat cousin tot he doesn't noes cantonese and dey were all tokin in cantonese tokin bout him... hahah... den i was like y u all say cantonese... he understands, they were shocked, haha... went home ard 9+, darlin haf to meet fren... den we went off first, onli realise i never bring keys when i reach home, mi and my silliiness.... hehhe... thanks god got darlin acc mi... hehe

yest went to work... i had the worse dae... went to OG and dey called mi to go Seiyu instead and Seiyu was like a rubbish dump everithin so messy and dey expect mi to clear everithin all by myself... can't they even understand how i feel... so pissed wif them... and still got scolded.. cudn't take it den cry le... ass la... hate them so much... nite time darlin came to pick mi up, he even wanted to get mi happy meal to cheer mi up... so sweet of him... tho he ended wif mushroom swiss/// my fav... (^_^)

so wad can i say bout today??? get to see my piggy... yeah... going to fun fair... WOOOO... so excited... hahah... love u lots piggy...

Joyce loving wyn @ 2:37:00 PM

Monday, February 07, 2005

yoohoo... im back... (^_^)

last sun had mood swing cos i cudn't get to see my dearie... hehe... den ended up at bedok shoppin... u will be thinkin wad is there to shop at bedok rite??? haha... tat's wad i think oso... but i spent 200 over at tat place... so crappy... cannot blame oso la... girls alwaes shop like tat de ma... haha... so wad did i get... shoes,contact lens and girls' stuff... yeah, 200 jus gone like tat...

last week wasn't so good for mi... cos i got no off... den i feel so reluctant to work... lucki haf fun colleagues dere to brighten my dae... den i think on wed, saw this guy hu looks like Taz, cudn't stop takin glances of him... for info im not ooglin at him or wad... i jus miss Taz... alot alot alot... was thinkin of all the times we had... tho we onli chatted on fone and writin letters, it was memorable... still can't acc the fact tat he had passed away... too hard for mi to blive... was tryin so hard not to cry, but tears jus stream down...

and last week quite alot of ppl and im jus so pissed by all the customer... make all my things messy... i nearli blew up at a num of them but guess i jus haf to tahan... but not all cust so bad la, i still haf some funny and nice de... there was this 2 cust hu stayed at my counter for almost like one hour, jokin ard... dey looked fierce, one of them even show mi his tattoo but dey veri humourous la... dey purposeli keep pronouncin bum as boom and i keep correctin them until i cudn't stop lauffin... my dae depends on cust sometimes... dey are the ones hu spoils it or brightens it...

sat de most happi wan.... cos i get to see moi piggy... miss him like crazy... haha... he calls me bear... teddy bear... sasha bear... all bcos of..... my hair? hehe... miss him to bitx...

guess i haf change... in sense of appearance??? not say i gettin pretty la... but like wearin contact, dyed hair... so diff from the mi... compare the now mi and the old mi and u will see the diff...

Joyce loving wyn @ 11:58:00 AM

Sunday, January 30, 2005

ARHHHH!!!!!!!!! i'm hafin mood swings........ i can't take it...

i hate mood swings... i hate i hate......

Joyce loving wyn @ 1:40:00 PM

Saturday, January 29, 2005

yoohoo... im off again... haha... i decided to quit my job le... after feb i guess... dey dun allow mi to take off on weekends if im a full-timer and if part-timer dey will keep shiftin mi here and dere... so i decided to quit le lo... mum was like askin mi whehter i quit bcos i got no time to date, in my heart i was like screamin yes! yes!, but jus told her tat i didn't haf time for myself so i quit... gonna miss all the peeps there if i quit... sigh*...

work was alrite this week i guess... Patricia(one of the staff at OG)n i got veri close.. realli fun wif her... hehe... alwaes smackin each other butts and "ooglin at guys"... haha... there was this once when she saw this guy hu's quite good looking, den she kept sayin how good he is and den his gf appear... i was like lauffin like crazy... haha... she's one cute babe la...

met mich and socky yest... was kinna shocked to see them... i was doing my stuff so didn't see them, den they were askin mi where the fittin room was, wif my back facing them... when i saw them i cudn't realli recognise them... hehe... they became more pretty?? yeah tat's rite... even Pat and colleagues oso say they are pretty... glad to see them (^_^) oh yah, for all the 4/5 we are going back to sch on new years eve and to mrs liew's place on 12th. not so sure bout this, can alwaes ask mich or socky bout it... can't wait to see all of u... hehe...

by the way, i had dye my hair... the colour is okie i guess... alot of ppl say the colour is nice... but im not sure whether it is suitable for mi lae... when i went to dye my hair, the hairdresser was like askin mi to choose those darker colour instead of those light de... but in the end i oso duno why i went to choose the light golden brown... haha... it turn's out alrite la... not to light... dey said im daring to dye this colour for a first timer... in the sense first time to dye... hehe... can't wait to see dearie's reaction... haha...

miss my piggy so muchie... can't wait to give him a tight tight hug...

Joyce loving wyn @ 11:06:00 AM

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

BOO !!! almost a week plus since i blog...

life as usual going to wokr everidae and stuff... and im so tired of workin... i wanna change job... office work, mon-fri, 8-5... i dun wanna work long hours... it is restrictin my own life...

finalli had my pay... and it was onli alil... felt so cheated... hhaa... but hu ask mi to keep takin off for no reasons... gonna dye my hair, buy contact lens... and lots.. i wun be tattooin so fast... few mths later...

feel as tho i haf no fren like tat de... nobodi come and find mi when im workin... haf la... vone and DJ, so sweet to find mi when they are off when we get to see each other everidae... my relatives and tat's it... felt so pathetic... forget it... those type of places i guess alot of ppl doesn't go...

miss my piggy so much... weekends took off can see him le... yeah... haha... realli glad to haf such a sweet guy... feels like tellin the whole world how good he is... haha...

Joyce loving wyn @ 1:21:00 PM

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

alo... this few daes was quite good i think... hehe...

let's recount... fridae i slacked at home, sat went to meet piggy, den watch meet the fockers, so happy get to see moi darling... miss him so muchie... den sun slack at home play game... mon, i can't realli rem, but i think i played game the whole dae... hehe...den chatted wif wayne at nite, it was kinna awkward i guess... cos too long since we chatted on the fone... and he is more caucasianis... hehe... i mean more ang moh... kinna not used to it... but lucki alwaes tok eng wif my darling, so still can... hehe... guess i realli bore him, was so quiet the whole time.. (^_^)

den morning went for dental app. noon met DJ and er mei to go swimmin... it was fun... so long since i haf swam... spent 5hrs+ in the pool, so relaxin...den it was like quite empty, and we were like ooglin at guys... haha... no la... kiddin... cos all hu went there were guys, we were the onli 2 gers there... hehe... realli had a fun time wif them but all got burnt badli... hehe...

den todae we went swimmin again, went in the late afternoon ard 4. this time round DJ nv swim... onli 2 of us swimmin, we went to baby pool and relax, chatted bout alot of stuff... all bout our guys and stuff... den after tat went to med pool lo, so many ppl... dun realli like... swam for awhile went alreadi, guess we scared tat DJ will be too bored ba... hehe... the 2 of them can say real sweet... (^_^)

i miss my darling damn badli la, it's like i can cry like tat...hehe... but nvm can see him this sat le... 2 more daes and it will be our 7th mth le... fast rite??? hehe... love him to bitx...

Joyce loving wyn @ 8:13:00 PM

Thursday, January 06, 2005

BOOO!!! will be hafin off for ard 8-10 daes... so shiok...haha... tat means i can make time to meet my 2 sis i haf not seen for ages and oso my precious... hehe...

workin life is fun... gettin to meet and work wif all sort of ppl... loves e ppl ard me... and OG oso haf this regular customer hu is a transvexual... dunno how to spell... a gay??? hehe... but "she" realli got the figures, so damn nice lo... haha... realli cute "girl" oso... haha...

this week haf been workin wif eileen, she got posted to my place as my colleague hafin off... nice workin wif her... she like so pretty lo, her smiles realli can make ppl melt those type... hehe... sweet babe... cannot tok bout gers too much... cos darling say i bcomin more lesbian...haha... im not okie... im straight... veri straight... (^_^)

aniwae finalli had my surgery todae, extraction of 4 wisdom teeth... was kinna fast i think... but the thing they make mi wear veri awkward, can see my buttock... haha... den inside the operation room, i was like kinna scared la, after dey put mi on drip dey gave mi the jab le, awhile later i fell asleep... can't even rem wad happen,onli rem dey keep calling my name and when i woke up i was like finish le ar? so fast ar? haha... cos i was havin a nice slp, dun wanna wake up... i was like shivering the whole time... veri cold... u can feel the whole body trembling... awhile later i was okie den now want to go toilet, but cos im still giddy, mum haf to help mi, but of cos she stayed outside of the toilet lo...hehe... my mum tot i cried, tears keep comin out my eyes, oso dunoo y... 4 wisdom tooth is out, one of it broken into half... oso duno y..haha... doc say my face will swell for a few daes... scary... so ugly le, still got face swellin will be more damn ugly de...haha...

guess my blog is long enuf le... aniwae missin my darling to bitx... miss him till im going crazy...hehe... love u lots baby

Joyce loving wyn @ 4:32:00 PM

Monday, January 03, 2005

BOOOO!!!!!!

so long since i done my bloggy... last post was alil sensitve...so forget bout tat..

let's tok bout wad had happen... on the eve of new year, we went drinkin... xiao mei & kx, DJ & er mei and mi & piggy... went fishermen's village drinkin... veri fun... had a fun time...but guess i can't hold liquor well... was drunk after onli one big cup plus...

guess my bloggie will be short... veri lazy to type... haha... see u guys soon... aniwae i love workin... i mean wif all those frenli ppl... realli fun...

but the long hours, doesn't allow mi to see my darling... so sad... but dun worri guess i will get to see my darling for long hours... havin OFF !!!!!!!! YEAH !!!!!!! 2 WEEKS !!!!!!! can get to see my sis oso le... esp sha and arafah... miss u so much...

Joyce loving wyn @ 10:53:00 PM

Saturday, December 25, 2004

FATSO FATSO FATSO FATSO... one wif no figure, ugly and stuff... the word is jus stuck in my mind...

i admit im fat,no figure and ugly... can't be compared wif those pretty gers... when i heard the word fatso, i jus cried... in front of all my relatives... but hope dey didn't see anithin... i was tryin to hide... went to take a breath, shower the dog... it was fun... but onli for a moment... can't hide from the reality, tat im realli fat... haf been tryin so hard to accept myself, and now this... i feel as tho my heart was being dropped down from a high-storey building... felt so hurt... realli badli hurt...

went home shortli alone... kept thinkin bout wad he said... cry,walked in daze, get knocked down by car?? i wish... walked home in tears, wishin someone was there to tok to mi, encourage mi... this is jus not my christmas, everithin wasn't going as i had expected...

cried myself to slp last nite, woke up feelin everithin is better... hopin a better dae is ahead... mum coincidentalli got the present i wanted, a great way to start the dae... happy to haf a gatherin, miss all my cuzzie and grandma... shudn't had asked him too much jus now... or i wun be cryin here...

jus can't get the word out of my mind... FATSO !!! it realli gave mi a great impact, i cant take it... seriousli... so wad now??? haf to try to accept hu i am again ??? it took mi years, and jus one word, all the effort was gone... haf to see hu the person said, if it was my relatives im okie wif it... it was not... nv expect tat... appearance realli does matter after all...

how i wish someone will jus call mi and tok to mi now... im feelin realli bad... feel like gettin back to my habit, inflictin scars... but guess tat doesn't help... how i wish my sista were here... esp arafah and sha... dey were the one hu had encourage mi alwaes, alwaes dere to lend a shoulder to mi... i miss them so much...

guess i shud go and take a rest... it's too hard on mi... i hate it...

Joyce loving wyn @ 10:30:00 PM

Saturday, December 18, 2004

woke up earli jus to write my bloggie... so nice rite??? haha... (^_^)

this week so far so good... nx week will be torture, cos got no off at all... realli can die...

earli in the mornin woke up and start cryin le... pathetic rite? guess i'm gonna miss my darling like crazy le...sigh*... from mon onwards he will be hafin some course den onli get to book out on sat afternoon at 1 and haf to book in sun evenin at 7.30... cudn't stop cryin when i think of "how am i going to see him?" Even had the tot of quittin my job, so i cud haf time... but guess darling wun be happy wif tat... hope i can do some adjustment wif my job dae asap, so i cud spend time wif him... if not im going to cry everidae like nobody business... call mi silly or wad...

i realli wonder how am i going to see him... the course may take long time... shortest 5 weeks+... longest??? all haf to depend on him... gonna ask my manager nx week whether i can change my off dae or change to part time asap... seriousli, i can't live without my darling... so mushy...

realli mus tahan... i can do it,gurl... aniwae baby, jus wanna tell u i realli love u (^_^) thanks for all the wonderful moments, promise never gonna leave u... u r alwaes on my mind.....

Joyce loving wyn @ 10:22:00 AM

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

BOOO!!! last week was a pretty alrite after all... quite used to the workin enviroment le...

last fridae, piggy came to fetch mi home... lucki got him if not i will be under the rain le... haha... felt so pampered, he haf to leave some drinkin session to fetch his dearie... and i feel as tho i got a chauffer, taxi... haha... was raining heavily den manage to haf piggy stayed overnite at my place... dearie was so tired still come and fetch mi, so sweet... he slpt in my room while i slp wif bro... mum la, keep complainin or nagging... den i haf to run here and there to slp, but den in the morning i went to slp wif piggy,until im suppose to wake up... so comfy slping wif him...haa...

Sat's work was tough... realli busy like crazy... cannot tahan, den met another colleague hu works there onli on weekends de, steven. quite frenli la... seems old? haha... Sun i gave myself off...haha... notti rite??? was not feelin well, den i jus dun go le... den in the end met piggy... haha... sometimes i jus hope tat i can stay wif him den can see him for long long hours le...hehe...

Mon, was okie la... but was quite abit worried de whole dae cos one of my "lesbo" fren said she wants to look for mi... whole dae i dun dare to stand near gers.... haha...

Yest was nice !!! haha... cos is my 6th mth anni ma... haha... so fast hor... woke earli,bathe den went to cousin's place to borrow her bag den went to piggy's place le... haha... we slack for awhile den went to Far East plaza... shop ard den saw socky, sort of miss them... hehe... shop ard den went to Scotts, get nth den in the end went back to far east again...haha... met mich this time at 3rd floor if im not wrong... den wanqi was oso there, veri coincident wor...haha... bought 2 bikinis for my sis each... and i feel like as tho im so damn rich to get some thing so ex... haha...
went to Heeren after tat, den piggy cheat mi... haha... he said wanted to buy chocolate and instead we went Marche... haha... dun wanna go cos scare to ex.... but in the end still went... the food there is nice, esp the rosti, can never get enuf of it...
after tat went to take pic, it was okie... feel as tho i spoil the foto...haha... (^_^)
walk to cuppage for a few rounds of pool, so long since i haf touch the cue... haha... den piggy was teachin mi how to play and stuff... but guess im still as lousy... den went off tat time saw some prostitutes??? dearie was showin mi where and stuff...
was late den took taxi home... time was like so short for us... so sad... but had a fun time wif darling (^_^)

aniwaes guess i will be gettin tattoo and the naval thingy in 2 more mths... and i realise im too young for tattoo oso... die le... hehe... guess i will haf to go to uncle's fren place for tattoo... haha...

k la, i gotta go le... haf to prepare for work.... ciaoz... miss u guys alot

Joyce loving wyn @ 10:42:00 AM

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

Heylo... i miss my bloggie so much... so long nv blog

todae had dental appointment so woke up earli and came back le... realli fun workin nowadays... oso duno y... the customer is frenli, the ppl there is jus so frenli la... hehe... Now im posted to work at OG albert near Parco there... miss mi mus come find mi, i'm off on wed... haha...

work is quite tough... cos i'm alwaes quiet den mus interact wif ppl... guess this job realli make mi open up quite alot... and all my colleagues are good wan... esp Ivy at TM de... jus love her so much... tho we onli spend one day together it was realli fun... miss her so much... tho i met her yest...haha...

i miss alot alot of ppl... esp sha, arafah and xiao mei... have not seen them for veri veri long le... i still got meet er mei cos she workin near mi, at bugis seiyu... wonder how am i going to meet up wif them lae... esp arafah and sha... duno how dey doing now le... so sad...To Sha & arafah:"when u guys see this msg, give mi a call, k? i will be at home on wed... and i will keep u posted when i get my new num."

i think my wishlists is gettin longer le... i got alot of things wan to do... not actualli buy... haha... i want to get 2 tattoos, one at the lower back and another at my lower abodomen? den oso wan to pierce my naval and highlight hair...haha... sounds so ah lian or stuff... haha... For info, i'm still the old shu ting, it's jus tat it's time to make changes??? haha... duno lae...

this few daes workin realli make mi miss my darling like crazy... even sometimes when im workin, i will feel like cryin... it realli shucks... it's like when i think of how long im able to spend my time wif my darlin jus make mi cry... we dun get to spend time together... realli miss all the weekends we haf, even tho all we do were slacking... i can't wait for 2 mths den im gonna work part-time and off on weekends... i went to B.U.M firstli was cos er mei didn't haf to work on weekends... den i tot i cud oso... but needed temp full-time so i help them first lo... never mind... 2 more mths and i will be able to spend time wif my darl le... realli mus tahan....

k la, guess i gotta rest le... lastli, darling u are alwaes on ur dear's mind... love u alwaes......

Joyce loving wyn @ 10:12:00 AM

Friday, December 03, 2004

WOW!!! I'm SO DEAD TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!! realli can die....

since yest haf been working... yest was at TM den todae at J8... now working at B.U.M equipment. so tired... some more work long hours...so no choice...

yest at TM, working wif Ivy... she veri frenli, veri cute... so lovable... realli fun workin wif her... learn alot of things from her, if onli can work wif her permanent... den dear dear so sweet came to send mi home, and he have to wait for so long... realli happy to see him... dunno how to say... i was realli reluctant to work cos i wun be able to spend time wif my darling... no choice la... haf to work for money... quite tirin de...

den todae went to J8, the shop jus finish renovating den we waited quite long for the thing to finish for us to go in, to pack the stuff.... den met geraldine, she worked wif mi todae den her fren came ard at 2+, dunno his name... den the whole dae, mi,geraldine, her fren, diana and another lady (dunno her name) pack the whole shop... Gosh, i'm so proud of ourself... serious... it's quite nice... hehe... shud go and see...den i think the shop will be opening tomolo.... shud go and see.. den J8 realli nice... nite time, darlin came to pick mi to aunt's place... realli had to thank darling for comin and send mi home...

k la, gotta slp le.... lastly darling...love u so muchie for alwaes being there for mi... and so supportive in everithin i do...

Joyce loving wyn @ 11:54:00 PM

Friday, November 26, 2004

so tired...jus came home from 2 interview... met xiao mei in the afternoon to go out... we went PP isetan to ask... den saw 2 BG oso there... shi xuan and kayee... i think... was alil scared at the interview cos 1st time alone...tat time 4 of us... quite frenli la... den 6 daes per week, 8 hours, i think mthli pay is 800++ includin allowance... quite good la...

after tat went interview at the Fila... the person okie ba... but all the question she asked mi veri scary... cos i duno how to ans... she asked why u wanna join our compani, and wad will u do if the cust are lookin at some stuff but u not sure whether dey are going to buy it... it's like i was realli dumb folded... haha... too bad i can't request to be wif xiao mei... so sad... but i dun wan them to post mi to the town area oso... so wad lo... jus see how ba... (^_^)

guess i gotta go and rest now... veri tired... ciaoz...

Joyce loving wyn @ 4:54:00 PM

so let's tok bout yest... earli in the morning uncle came and den he bought top-up card for mi, so good... den went to deposit money for him... guess he strike lottery or wad.. and he gave my bro 10 each oso...

had breakfast together and he was like askin mi when am i going to get tattoo, he will arrange wif his frens... i can't wait to put... gettin it after i start workin and get paid 1st...
yest piggy had half dae off so went over to his place.. if not i wun even got time to see him ar...

noon time went over to aunt's place, was like alone at her place cps all went out and i haf to wait for aunt to be back... had dinner oveer at her place den nite time piggy sent mi home... so sweet... den we were playin his pda and stuff... the game veri funny... we played the game the whole journey and it was like so fast reach home le... realli love being wif him... if onli i cud see him todae... but i doubt so...

Joyce loving wyn @ 10:21:00 AM

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

Boo... realli had fun todae wif moi two darlings, sha n arafah

we met in the afternoon den went to boon sing building... had this interview thingy... and i think they hiring alot alot of ppl... so ppl hu is interested go and look in the papers... i think classified section haf... some marketing stuff... whereby u promote some stuff i think... dey will organise training for u to learn bout the product knowledge, communication skills and stuff...
but dun think we r realli tat interested lae...

after the interview we went to Bugis to take foto... we r like country bumpkin la... so funny lo... after takin the foto we dun realli know how to decorate and after tat we were lookin for tat stupid hole, where the pic came out... but seriousli the pic was nice, but too bad my scanner lousy so cannot scan nicely...

den went to singapore post to find job... we were like tourist or worse den tourist... walkin everiwhere jus to find the singapore post when it is in the middle...hehe... went LJ to eat after tat, i owe arafah 2 meal le la... she kept treatin mi de... so pai sae...hehe...

guess i gotta go le... ciaoz...

Joyce loving wyn @ 6:14:00 PM

Monday, November 22, 2004

YUPPIE!!! Os finalli finish le... hehe... quite happy la... after 4 years has finalli paid off le... but still miss the times when we were in class makin noise and studyin... realli... my class has a bunch of fun ppl, gonna miss them so much...

todae had the sci paper 1... was quite okie la.. den after tat had ard 4hrs break before DnT paper... went to LJ wif moi two sistaz... dey ate breakfast while i go on empty stomach... i can be a celestial soon... forever skippin meals going on empty stomach... it's not surprising if i haf stomach ulcer or cancer de...

studied for veri long at LJ, den ard 12+ left for sch le... none of us haf mood to study... so excited tat the paper is over...

i'm jus so tired... dun even feel like eatin dinner... mum nv cook my share... hehe... but guess i haf to eat smth before piggy threathen to pop over my place... (^_^)

Joyce loving wyn @ 7:49:00 PM

Sunday, November 21, 2004

yawnz... so tired... this few daes dun haf good nite slp... wake up all over achin... this morning haf to wake up earli cos gotta go airport to send Mdm Fang... she went back to China le... so sad... alot of ppl went mostli 4/3 & 4/5 student... den mrs liew,mr lee, mdm tan and mrs mark-tan was oso there... so sad dat she is going back, oso duno when is she gonna come back... but she will onli be comin back for holidae not teachin le...

went to the departure hall, u noe those atmosphere jus make ppl wanna cry de ma... den i cannot tahan... realli cannot... den after she went in, er mei oso start cryin le... hehe... tot i'm the onli one so pathetic to cry...

some of the guys so sweet made her jigsaw puzzle... bet she is veri touched (^_^) jus wish her all the best ba... hope to keep in contact...

gotta go liao...ciaozz...

Joyce loving wyn @ 10:05:00 AM

Saturday, November 20, 2004

todae is piggy bdae... Happy Bdae, my dear boy...

slept late last nite, jus wanna wish my piggy happi bdae... silly rite??? den this few daes haf to share room wif bro cos my room under massive cleaning... so sian... and im doing the thing all by myself... can die... realli not use to slpin wif bro... keep wakin up... realli tiring... i miss my room le...

den slp so late, so earli wake up to do some stuff... guess tonite i will slp real earli ba... k la, gotta go liao le...

Joyce loving wyn @ 10:51:00 AM

Thursday, November 18, 2004

elo... feel so tired... guess dun haf enuff slp last nite ba... woke up wif swollen eyes and was feelin so blue... cried myself to slp last nite, oso duno y like tat... guess i feel veri lousy...a veri lousy gf... and someways also destressin... so long since i haf cried so hard... quite tensed up cos of O, but haf been tryin real hard not to show le... finalli one more paper and im free... and tat will be the last time i will see all moi classmates in sch... realli miss them...

guess i realli screwed up my paper todae... my mind was totalli blank... can't even do one question fully... im like so dead... wad's the use of my paper 1 better when my paper 2 is going to get zero? realli felt so discouraged, wanted to cry in the paper... everione was like sayin how easy it is... den mi ??? sigh... forget it... better dun let this affect my DnT..

after paper todae, went to cityhall den went to get some stuff wif moi two sista, jing jie and edwin... after buyin the stuff, moi wo sista wif edwin, went ard to ask for job... i can't wait to start workin... but i haven even find... if realli dun haf, guess i got no choice but to go to the optical shop, cos she asked mi...

guess tat's all le... gonna do housework and pack my room like crazy... intends to donate all my toys and stuff to salvation army liao...hehe... ciaoz...

Joyce loving wyn @ 5:45:00 PM

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

elo... paper todae was okie ba... my poor ger (sha) was sick... quite worried bout her... she was late for her paper todae... went to her after the paper... wanted to cry when i see her... she looks so sick... veri sad to see her like tat... hope she get well soon...

on mon, when to john little sale at EXPO... den shopped ard... bought the "mircobaby" thingy... haf to admit tat it's real cute... den went book fair, den funiture sale... this lady was so kan cheong when she saw mi and my bro... they were hafin a wedding thingy... she asked mi whether im gettin married soon... i was shocked... den i giggled... den she said... anyway u look veri young oso...haha... both mi and my bro started to lauff veri looud... haha... can't sis and bro stand together??? hehe... if we are a couple we look quite compatible... look alike...haha...

Yest had dental appointment... it was so damn long lo... i was there for almost 4 hours... den had this consulation thing... haf to go for surgery nx year... gotta extract my wisdom teeth... veri scary lae... den the dentist say she will put mi to slp before the surgery take place... guess daddy will be there wif mi... cos need someone to escort mi home de... guess will be weak i think... scary.... den met piggy to acc him to dinner... my piggy real sweet... so glad to haf him... can never get enuff of his hugs and kisses... haha...(^_^)

Joyce loving wyn @ 1:40:00 PM

Sunday, November 14, 2004

finalli did some changes to moi blog le... it has been so long since i changed the skin... (^_^) and happen to found moi pri sch bball coach pic from fren's frenster... miss the times when we haf bball practice... alot of memories... he was strict and fierce, rem i was alwaes scare to go for practice... but he is nice to us... had alot of fun wif him but too bad he got stroke and he had to rest at home... once after we won or got the trophy from winnin in some east zone game, we went straight to his place, it was real sad to see him in the situation... he can't speak properli but we knew he was proud of us... real hard to hold back our tears... tat was the last time i seen him... i wonder how is he now...
he's alwaes in our memories....

moi ex-bball coach (tps)

Joyce loving wyn @ 4:32:00 PM

ello... has been a few daes since i blog le... hehe... came to do one short short one... this week everithin was okie ba... the best part is i get to see piggy alot... cos of the public holi and incentives...

one more thing to be happy bout... IT"S OUR 5TH MTH ANNI LE (^_^) real glad to haf a guy like him, alwaes there for mi de... thanks for being wif mi throughout my Os, givin mi encouragement and helpin mi to "de-stress"... so sweet of u... love u so much baby...

Joyce loving wyn @ 11:15:00 AM

Thursday, November 11, 2004

ello... finalli got time to add some stuff to my blog le... bet my bro mus be jealous of the effect...hehe...(^_^)

yest went out wif piggy, he had off cos of some incentive... duno how to say... hehe... went to Bishan to watch movie... princess diaries 2 was nice...veri nice... funny and touchin... nearli cried in the show... haha... someone cried in the show oso... too bad didn't get to see... (^_^)

after the movie, we shopped ard den went to haf teppan-yaki for dinner... it was alil too spicy but nice... mus ask daddy to go and eat... (^_^)

after dinner walk ard and we r like walkin in circles ...hehe...walked back to AMK to take bus home... it was a long walk... but wif piggy, i doubt so... hehe.. so glad to haf him and counting down to 3 more daes le (^_^)

Joyce loving wyn @ 11:01:00 AM

Sunday, November 07, 2004

BOO!! yest realli had a fun time shoppin... mummy and aunt were quite surprise tat i went out wif my cuzzie... de moment they saw me they asked never go dating ar? it's like ...erm... duno how to say lae...

met cuzzie at cityhall and cudn't find one another... haf to call each other... and in fact she was standin in front of mi but quite a dist... so funny lo...hehe... went suntec 1st den shop ard but nv buy anithin den after tat met aunt for lunch... went to country mania to eat...such a rare occasion we get to be together... den cuzzie said she wanna learn yoga, so we r plannin to go together liao le... haha... she was so excited bout it... hehe... actualli mi oso...

after lunch went to marina, shop ard den went to raffles city and den went for teabreak... went shoppin ard so fun lo... went to robinson den saw kiwi... he's good lookin... rem last time he chubby chubby de... hehe... now change alot liao... didn't recognise him at first... den he smile to mi den i smile back lo... hehe... but he didn't noe where i'm from de... hehe... too bad den..

after shoppin, we went to esplanade to meet another aunt... the place was quite nice la, but the place we had dinner at was not tat good de... chicken wings and fish uncooked, make mi lose my appetite... YUCKS...

after dinner we walked to raffles city to take mrt den go home le, it was a tiring dae but fun ... haha... in the end we never buy anithin... hehe... (^_^)

Can't wait to see piggy later... but guess he still slpin... like a pig...haha... (^_^)

Joyce loving wyn @ 11:21:00 AM

Saturday, November 06, 2004

aloha... this week was practically veri tired... all the exams... sigh*... i jus seem to never havin enuf rest de... guess quite stress bout all this exam ba.. hehe... expected de ma... tho i seem quite calm, i'm realli tensed up... have to thank my piggy for alwaes being there givin mi encouragement... and all the best wishes from my frens..(^_^)
all the paper so far still okie la... hope i can pass lo...weekend has finalli come for mi to relax awhile le.. (^_^) can't wait to mit my cousin... 1st time i going out wif her... mus be wonderin how come 1st time rite??? hehe... cos we hardli see each other... onli few times a year durin occasion.... but cos todae both of us free den we decided to mit...hehe... quite excited bout it but alil sad tat cudn't see moi piggy ... but nvm...hehe..

yest xiao mei, er mei and jing jie came to my place after our paper.. er mei so auto... jus say wanna go my hse and ask ppl ard to go my hse... hehe... like as tho my hse can accomodate so mani ppl like tat...haha... but was nice hafin them over... dey watched tom and jerry cartoon... all cos er mei wanna watch... and dey jus lauff so loud lo... hehe... see them lauff oso veri funny... den after tat dey watched horror movie... spent long hours over at my place and all was like so tired... hehe... after the horror movie all go home liao le... too tired...hehe...(^_^)

guess i will blog once a week, cos of O level... after O den see how lo.. .cos wanna work den doubt i haf time to blog everidae le... hehe..(^_^) gotta go liao le...ciaoz...

Joyce loving wyn @ 11:07:00 AM

Monday, November 01, 2004

wow... it has been so long since i had written a blog... and i jus miss writin blog la...hehe... alot of things had happened in this one week... too much to go into detailed...

so i guess i will haf to start writin bout yest ba to get the ball rolling... (^_^)

yest went over to piggy's place, he was suppose to coach mi in physics... this time round i did study... hehe... cos usualli we slack like nobody business...hehe... realli feel so glad to haf him ... hehe.. (^_^) den had dinner nearby, i realise tat we had alot in common is tat we dun like to eat beans, sotong and alot... hehe... can't rem... den we loves FRIES...hehe... our fav...(^_^)

den he sent mi home... in the bus we kept takin pic...hehe...so funny... den the journey was like so damn fast... so fast reach home le... so she bu de...hehe.. (^_^)

aniwae had put up some of the pic, taken in the one week and yest... gonna edit the size soon... todae not free... gotta rush back to sch for chinese paper 2 soon... aniwae lucks to all the ppl takin Os... jus 2 weeks plus to suffer and we are free...

Joyce loving wyn @ 11:55:00 AM

~for info, all the pics haf been transferred to the album liao le ~

Joyce loving wyn @ 11:44:00 AM

Sunday, October 24, 2004

hello... last nite reach home ard 9+ 10... den lazy to blog... hehe... (^_^)

yest went to gym in the morning... the gym is so packed todae... and finally we saw the guy, er mei "likes"... he is tall but not good-lookin de... oso duno y...hehe.... den i saw my guy again...wow...hehe... (^_^) "so mesmerise" by him...haha... kiddin kiddin...

after gym we went to lunch in LJ as usual... it was fun... hehe... cos after eatin we were playin wif zihao fone and den we were like so crazy lo... hehe... lauff until so loud...hehe..(^_^)

after tat went home to change den left for piggy's place... we tot tat there will be mobilisation so stayed at home whole dae... THEY CHEAT US !!! hehe... but as long as see piggy and be wif him i happy liao le la... hehe...

den before going home while we were slpin, i duno y i cried... guess i think too much liao le la... alwaes hu si luan xiang de... hehe... (^_^) but now not thinkin so much le la... thanks piggy... (^_^) love u so muchie... piggy so sweet to acc mi home last nite even tho he was tired... wanted to ask him to stay over but scare parents dun allow lae... so sad... nvm... nx time i will sureli asked...hehe...(^_^)

guess tat's all i haf to say le... ciaozzz........

Joyce loving wyn @ 9:03:00 AM

Friday, October 22, 2004

alo... so sianzz....hehe...

todae morning went to sch to study...so guai rite??? in the end like nv study lae.. cos sch so noisy... den so irritatin lo... but still fun to hangout for awhile... sianZ... got scolded by mrs liew bcos of the amaths thingy... like wad lo... feel like cryin la... got scolded by her until like tat... guess she was quite mad wif mi oso ar...

den study until 4+ went to eat at market 85... quite fun wif them... Francis, zihao, yi sheng and er mei... a bunch of fun lovin ppl ...hehe...(^_^)

reach home den mama called, said she found a hp and whether i wan.. .den i say okie lo... den we went to get hi-card... surprisingli i dun seems to be excited or wad lae... sigh*... oso duno y...sian

im so bored now... sian... can die... im tired i guess... tat's all...ciaozzzzzzzzzzzz.....

Joyce loving wyn @ 9:40:00 PM

Thursday, October 21, 2004

BBOOO!!! came to write a short blog den gotta go and study liao le... dun wanna disappoint my piggy... guess he was quite upset wif mi cos i was veri stubborn last nite... didn't wanna study... felt so bad... and now he has wash his hands off mi on my studies... so sad... hehe

this few daes so bored... can die liao la... can't wait to go back sch... i miss sch... miss mrs liew, and all the guys and gers... hehe...(^_^)

miss piggy so muchiex... can't wait to see him this sat... guess i gotta go liao le... haf to study hard... not to let my parents and piggy disappointed...(^_^)

Joyce loving wyn @ 11:38:00 AM

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

elo... doing blog earli... duno whether i will come online tonite or not...hehe...

yest stayed at cousin's place until 8+ den piggy send mi home... so sweet rite??? den the bus journey like so fast... wonder whether issit bcos the road was quiet or wad... so fast...hehe... jus love all the times i had wif him... all so sweet... so glad to haf him... (^_^) realli can't do without him... feel as tho my world is onli revolvin ard him...haha... (^_^)

startin from todae gotta study liao le... will be mugging like crazy...hehe... aniwae everione all the best to ur O... and dun over stress urself... (^_^)

Joyce loving wyn @ 1:49:00 PM

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

helo... guess i wun blog when i reach home so blog while im at my cousin's place 1st lo...hehe... (^_^)

this morning had dental appointment den piggy acc mi... so sweet rite??? took leave to acc mi to my appointment... (^_^) so glad to haf him... poor him haf to wait for so long and made him bored... den after dental went for lunch nearby, the kopitiam so miser la... de rice give onli a lil bit... where got full... bet piggy is not full at all... hehe

den walk ard duno whether to take bus home or MRT... so scared tat i will pissed piggy off cos i can't even decide... den in the end decided to take bus wif him... went to his hse,got his baby foto... slack awhile den went out... it was raining so heavily and piggy cudn't find his umbrella so we had to share an umb... so funny... hehe...(^_^)

reach aunt's place and was chattin wif her bout piggy and stuff... so nice tokin to her... if onli she was my mum...hehe... so sad tat piggy got charged cos he was late for his booking in... felt alil bad... sigh*...

so glad to haf such a nice guy... such a lucki ger... hehe... im alwaes repeatin.... so naggy...haha... aniwae piggy, i love u ... lotts...

Joyce loving wyn @ 3:58:00 PM

Monday, October 18, 2004

helo... so sorri for not bloggin yest... reach home onli ard 10+++ hehe... and den was too lazy to type ...(^_^)

Yest went piggy's place to slack... haha... den watch the new police story... quite nice la... but a lil lame??? hehe... oso duno... so nice get to spend yest wif piggy... so good... (^_^)

i oso got nth much to say lae... hee...

sch todae was okie la... had o level practical... den again i cannot light up my bunsen burner... haha... but lucki not alot of experiment need ... onli one... tho i never do, i guess the answer correctli... so lucki....hehe...(^_^)

went lunch wif xiao mei at Mac... tok alot... we alwaes got alot of things to say wan... can tok non-stop... hehe...(^_^) she jus miss her Kx so muchie la... haha... i rem to say liao wor...hehe...(^^,) dun realli noe wad to say oso... hope to see my piggy soon... hehe... love him so muchiez

Joyce loving wyn @ 5:58:00 PM

Sunday, October 17, 2004

so sorri for not bloggin yest... reach home onli ard at 10+ and was veri tired.... so lazy...hehe...

yest ard 10+ went to gym to meet er mei, zihao and terrence... oso duno y he came... shud noe hu la... saw terrence when i alight the bus den onli wave to each other... and not a simple hello was said... so rude... lucki zihao reach earli if not i will die being wif him... den was complainin to zihao bout him... so funny... den er mei reach liao, no ones wans to go and call him to go... haha... den in the end er mei still went lo... i alwaes stick wif zihao cos terrence and er mei together tokin ma... no ones actualli wanna tok to him... haha...

In the gym, i saw the guy i "likes"... so funny... den zihao kept askin mi stop staring at him...hehe... he looks huge... seriousli
... when he walk pass mi he is like so BIG...haha... but soon he went off le... den i joke sayin if he has a car i will go and "woo" him...haha... i tot he didn't haf a car... den in the end saw him went to his car... EEK!! so pai sae...haha...
den we were all doing our things and terrence was doing weights... guess he kept pullin his muscles... cos can see from his expressions... cannot do so heavy den dun show off lo... now i noe y he alwaes complain to mi his muscle ache last time le... so extra sia...

went lunch together... so funny... cos er mei and i so noisy wif our lame jokes and stupid action... so funny... hehe...(^_^) after lunch went to collect some stuff den was playin wif zihao's camera fone... amazingly all the pic taken cannot see er mei wan... haha... my head too big...haha..(^_^)

went home do my stuff den met piggy... thanks dearie for the pillow... so cute... hehe... (^_^) now i got a bigger thing to hug le...compared to ur "chou chou" ...hehe... den went to grandma's place together... dear dear so sweet to acc mi there and poor him mus be so bored over there... er jie said tat he looks like a malay den ah ma was lauffin...haha...

realli haf to thanks dearie for being wif mi... felt so much better after so many bad things had happen... esp the death of Taz... but everitin is okie le.. all thanks to my piggy... haha... love u so muchie la...

~ i noe of all the sacrifices u haf made for mi, i realli appreciate everithin... thanks darling... love u so much ~

Joyce loving wyn @ 9:20:00 AM

Friday, October 15, 2004

todae is not the dae for mi... woke up wif swollen eyes wif all the cryin last nite... i called his hp but all got cancelled... tat moment i was so lost... didn't noe wad to do... called piggy and was tryin to act nth happen but in the end i still cried and told him everithin... Guess he was shocked to hear mi cry until so loud or wad... hehe... thanks darling for being there for mi... i wun be as cheerful as usual le... this will realli take mi sometime to get over... sigh*

in the morning i knew i will cry so i was tryin not to think bout him and my brother jus haf to ask mi things bout Taz... i tried to calm myself down but started cryin once i was in father's car... i can't take it... reach sch and arafah asked y i was so gloomy and i broke down again... she was shocked, and i cried so hard den i can't even catch my breath to tell her wad happen...

I realli miss him... u guys mus be wonderin hu this fren is... jus a guy i haf never met b4... my penpal... we noe each other for 1 yr plus le... we dun send letters onli lo, we alwaes tok on the fone and stuff... he is like my older bro, alwaes givin mi advice, being there for mi... we even were so close tat we made a pact to be together in a few years time... He promised to celebrate my birthdae nx year... how can he leave mi like tat...

he meant alot to mi... he is the one hu alwaes cheer mi up... my past 3 relationship, he was there standing by to hold mi, and bring mi up... helpin mi thru all the times... where can u find someone like him... tho we never even meet before we are veri close... realli close... tat's why it's so hard for mi to accept the fact tat he had left this world...

i realli dun haf the mood to do anithin... even wanted to cancel going gym tomolo... but er mei realli wanna go... den maybe i shud go there and excercise my hearts out... detsress abit...

sch todae wa short... the last dae we will be in sch... everithin seems to be alright until the ceremony... all the serious faces... Haikal did the speech veri nicely... den i cannot tahan cos i will miss mrs liew den i cried again... so sad lo... i realli dun wanna leave her... *sigh...

finalli we had to sing Auld lang syne... i hate tat song... cos it alwaes meant we haf to part... Sara cried... make mi see liao cry oso... hugged her tightli and the 2 of us cried... realli can't bear to part wif everione in my class... all so wonderful... hug my gfs and even hug some of the guys... realli love them so muchie... all of them... gonna miss them so muchie... Den we had to line up one line and shake hands wif all the teachers... we dun even noe some of the teachers but we still shake hands la... walk until Mrs liew den cried so hard... hug her... and im so gonna miss her... ('.') mdm fang was oso cryin, once in my life i actualli hug my teachers... mrs liew, mdm fang, mrs chai, mdm salenah and mrs tan... all wonderful teachers... and mrs chai leavin le... so retirin... so sad... and i jus love her so much.. . she's so cute lo... im gonna miss everione... esp 4/5...

whole dae of cryin realli make my eyes so pain... yvonne went to my place had lunch together den i went to slp while bro entertain her... went to my room took out all the letters Taz and i had and i start cryin ... realli miss him... and 2 weeks ago we even send a msg to each other... how am i going to forget him... ('.')

guess i gonna end my long blog le... lastli sorry dear for not wantin to go ECP... im so sorri... hope u understand...

Joyce loving wyn @ 7:01:00 PM

Thursday, October 14, 2004

my god... im breathin so hardli... saw bulletin board sayin tat one of my fren jus passed away... im so scare... i duno whether it's true... and i missed him so much... i alwaes wanted to meet him after my O... pls god tell mi tat that's onli a joke... i realli can't take it...

my god i can't stop cryin.... i wonder whether he's alright... im so scared... i was still tokin to him weeks ago... Pls tell mi tat it's onli a joke... pls pls... i can't take it...

now i can't find his fone num... asshole... i wonder how am i going to contact him... ARRGGGHHH !!!! im going crazy... EEEEEEEEEEEEE.... pls tell mi tat he is alright... pls god.....

Joyce loving wyn @ 9:52:00 PM

BOOOOO!!!

First of all... HAPPY 4TH MTH ANNI BABY (^_^) so fast 4th mth le... time realli flies... so glad to be wif ya... and hafin u in my life... thanks baby for all the wonderful times.... love u so muchie... can't wait to see ya tonite and give u one tight hug hug... hehe..

Sch todae was okie ba... alil boring as usual... imagine it will be the last time we will be in a eng class... in a S.S class... so sad hor... we so old liao le... so fast leavin this sch... still rem went we 1st step into the sch... feel as tho it's like yest... haha... we are old le... hehe....

im so gonna like miss my class... think tat my class is the best... wif all the cute ppl inside and a motherly teacher... so good rite... somemore alot of my class guys had been together for 4 years la... went thru all the funny moments since we were in sec 1 - 4 .... realli can't bear to leave the ppl here... hope we still can keep in contact lo... mus organise gatherings once in a while nx time... i die die oso will go de... cos we r more knitted... more like family ma... (^_^)

so scare i will cry tomolo... cos it's the official dae we sort of graduate and leave the sch.... realli so scare i will cry... gonna prepare lots and lots of tissue... and mrs liew is so sweet tat she even got smth for us... such a nice teacher... can't bear to leave her oso... so fast nx year poly le... in a new enviroment but still hope tat i will meet my frens... Wz and er mei going to the same course i wanna go i think... hope to see them there (^_^)

last but not least, 4/5 RaWkS... I LOVE 4/5... all the fond memories we shared....

Joyce loving wyn @ 4:28:00 PM

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

Alo... hehe... im so maddie todae... so de hyper... guess cos i was too bored at home le... poor piggy had to tahan my "kiddy" behaviour...hehe...

todae pon sch... still haf to lie to parents... sigh*... was veri tired todae so decided to stay at home... earli in the morning had to fake tat i got stomachache to convince mum tat im sick... sigh*... but still kena scolded by her... so sian...

but at least i gotta slp longer...haha... den woke up called piggy... hehe.. so nice rite??? hehe...cos i miss him ma... wad can i say... (^_^) guess i haf the sweetest guy... so glad to haf him in my life le...

gotta go and concentrate and play game wif my piggy le... ciaoz... lastli i love u lots piggy boi

Joyce loving wyn @ 9:35:00 PM

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

BOO!!! haha... i'm so bored... reach home ard 5+++ so tired...

sch todae was boring... some more got the stupid briefin on practical... can't stop but fallin asleep... haha... den xiao mei jus haf to hit mi and wake mi up...haha...

after sch went out wif Sha... so long since we had went out together... den suggested tat we all go lunch tomolo... so long since we had go out together... mus thanks my darling sha, bcos of mi she missed her prayers... felt alil bad... but thanks aniwae... so sweet of u...(^_^) we realli tok bout alot of stuff... haha... so much things to say... jus love tokin to her la... so sad we going to leave each other soon... hope tat nx time we still haf time for one another... to meet up and catch up on one another... hehe...

miss my piggy boi so much... so sad todae he got guard duty... but den he swopped duty wif his fren, so tat he can call mi ard 8-11... so sweet rite??? den he had to do late duty... my piggy is the best la... so sweet and stuffz... so lucki to haf him...haha..(^_^) guess i gotta go liao le... ciaozz...

Joyce loving wyn @ 5:36:00 PM

Monday, October 11, 2004

helo... so sianzzz... haha... shud haf tok to moi piggy... haha... but aniwae he going home soon liao le... can tok to him after he reach home ma... (^_^)

sch is like so damn sian lo... sigh*... if onli i cud stay at home this whole week...haha... too lazy to go sch liao le...

went lunch wif er mei after sch at market 85... eat until so full... dinner no need to eat liao le...hehe...(^_^) oso duno wad to write liao le lae...hehe...

last but not least... i miss u alot piggy (^_^)...love ya and one more thanks for the necklace... i realli like it... i nv show u face to tell u i like it... cos i realli like it...haha...(^_^)

Joyce loving wyn @ 5:28:00 PM

Sunday, October 10, 2004

helo... hehe... i noe im one lucki ger...hhee... noe it for veri de long liao le...hehe...(^_^)

todae went to watch Excorcist at TM... tho it was my second time watchin i was still veri scared... all thanks to the sound effect la... make mi so scare.. poor piggy... i feel as tho i squeeze all his flesh...hehe.... i can't stand the lady sittin beside mi... oso duno y... haha... keep tokin... and den her voice... no comments... haha....

after tat went to piggy's place... his mum bake shephard pie.... and IT'S VERI DELICIOUS !!! hehe... too bad my stomach cannot fit in animore... or else i will eat some more... haha... mus learn how to cook... den nx time can bake for my family liao...hehe...(^_^)

guess mummy and daddy likes piggy... hehe.. oso duno y... but haf those feelings tat dey like him... so glad...(^_^)so lucki to haf piggy as my guy... im one lucki ger... hehe... love him so muchie...

guess tat's all le la.. felt so bad for havin the comp to myself, and make piggy go out watch TV...hehe... good buaizz...

Joyce loving wyn @ 7:14:00 PM

Saturday, October 09, 2004

elo... had a fun dae todae... tho was slackin...haha..

piggy knew tat i was sick so he came down to accompani mi.. so sweet rite?? den he bought mi a bouquet of flowers... so sweet... thankies darling...den i oso took fotos of the flowers... it's later in the post

slack at my hse so long...haha... tok alot, slack, den i rest... realli love being wif piggy... jus love havin his company (^_^)
den we had dinner wif my parents... mummy ordered all those spicy stuff... i cannot tahan sia... so scare all the food is not up to piggy's likes... haha...(^_^)

i oso duno wad to say lae... jus so glad tat he was here... thanks darling... love ya...

zhang zhang jiu jiu ("v")

nice ribbons...(^_^)

nicey flowers...

Joyce loving wyn @ 9:50:00 PM

"when you smile at me I go blind. when
you face shines bright I have to close
my eyes. Like an angel above, you know
that it's true, there's no one anywhere
that I love more then you..."

* wud like to dedicate this jus for moi piggy...

Joyce loving wyn @ 11:39:00 AM